break'inSaturday, November 26, 2005
hmm..today i returned home only at 6am..i worked from 5.30p.m to 6a.m..it was veri exhausting..yday was a Tamil dinner and i yday swore i would nv attend a tamil function ever again..the damn dinner only started at 10pm and we were already on standby at 6plus..the staffs had nth to do and just stood there like statues..it was awfully boring..then i and Alan went to the kitchen area and 'eat snake' quite frequently..haha..the worst part was the performance..it was so long which cause the dinner to start only at 11pm..moreover, the performance was so lame and stupid..haix..they could have put up sth beta instead..
haix..i just woke up not longer ago..finding myself alone at hm..haix..switching on the music so loud while writing this entry..later after i finish writing this entry i stil have to work..haix..i dun have much of a life huh? its so boring..Moreover, i didn't have anything to look forward at this moment..haix..because the higher my hopes are, the more i get disappointed.. let nature take its course??Lol..i believe u have to fight for thinx..letting things just happen slowly and by its own its just a form of excuse..i am just simply frustrated..asking someone who likes u to find someone else beta is oso foolish and selfish, especially for someone whom u nv stead before..u dun even noe what the other party feels abt u and just make this sentence simply..this is just an excuse to reject the person..and u dun even give that person ONE chance to show his love and fend him off..that guy's heart just shatters and does the girl noe?
haha..believe this scenario applies to Linjun too ba..haix..thats why i must work like siaoz..like that life will shorten..haha..lol..troubled.....beep...
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break'inWednesday, November 23, 2005
hmm..today is quite a day for mi..busy throughout the day..and sad in the evening..
morning met up with Joe and Alvin and went to orchard to do the registration procedures for our job..we got to the
hotel at about 1 plus and the in charge told us that we could only register at 3.30..that moment i and Alvin felt like
killing Joe..never tell us the office hour earlier..then we were thinking what can three guys possobly do to kill time in
Orchard..The answer was pool..haha..we hurried to lucky plaza where we crossed the suoer large road outside the
hotel..Alvin told us just run across the road because there was no cars in sight..we crossed the road halfway and a bus
was approaching us..that stupid Alvin almost killed i and Joe man ! haha..we went to the pool hall and started the
game..we choose a different table..the table was much bigger and thus challenging..if i am not wrong the table should
be 9"..the first few games i was on a winning streak..but after that linjun came and we played tag..thats when i started
losing..lol..we played for 2 long fun hours because there was alot of laughter and jokes in the midst of the game..after
the game we went to the hotel again and met linjun two friends, whom oso wanted to register..i and alvin also made
friends with them..one was called Guoliang and the other prefered to be called Jed, if i am not wrong..I and Alvin
switched names and made them confuse..dunno who is who..haha..it was so funny..lol..then the Shirley,the person
incharge gave me and Alvin alot of functions to do..our schedule is like so packed..we are working practically
everday..and we just accepted the job without much consideration..lol..
then Linjun showed us around the very large hotel which made me SUPER DUPER CONFUSED..[ Linjun, til now i duno
where is the Mandarin Court and the ballroom..got so many different names and doors de..make mi so
confuse..haha..]then off we head back to Yishun..then Joe and linjun went home and Alvin accompanied me to buy pants
for work tomorrow..then we went to funland and rot there while waiting for Ed they all to watch movie..we watched The
Exorcism of Emily Rose..the show was not reali acary to me..it was just abit of gore..because u see the emily rose being
possessed and twisted into veri gross positions..haha..Lihui they all were sitting in front of me and jumping off their
seats..haha..hmm..on the outside i appear to enjoy the show but inside i just found it rather boring..Alvin should know
why..haix..just sucks totally..
Find human beings rather erotic..they just show their emotions differently..sometimes certain actions mean something
yet sometimes it does not seem what it actually appears to be..haix..it sounds reali sophisticated..today Ed told me sth
that i felt made much sense..but i chose the difficult way and not escape although i know the end is mostly hurting
de..to soldier on to see what lies beyond..to attempt what seems impossible..as long as there is a glimpse of hope, i will
not let go...[this way then no regret la Ed..consider..].....
i am not sure when wil be my next entry because i wil be busy at work..haix.....beep.....
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break'inSaturday, November 19, 2005
Nowadays updating my blog quite regularly..lol..almost everydae is an interesting day for mi..haha..
today went to grandma hse in the morning..Basically went there on my own accord because veri long nv visit my grandma le..so went there to see see..also is to play badminton with my relatives..we played for almost two hours and i did not stop to rest..it was like so tiring..haix..then after went back to my grandma hse and picked out my hp..there were so many SMSes and miss calls..they were all from Ed and joanna..haha..asking me out..quickly, i agreed and rushed from tiong bahru all the way back to khatib..got changed and meet them..Ed ask them to play pool..Yianping,Aiwei,Lihui,Joanna,Ed,Alvin and me met up and go AMK to play..must say Yianping wear til veri nice..haha..however, the ppl there checked aiwei and they were unable to enter..i n Ed quickly canceled the game and we went to have dinner instead..then Alvin say he and Ed and joanna waited for 6 hrs plus just to eat dinner in AMK..haha..then we went to causeway and managed to sneak Yianping they all in..haha..we warmed up with afew crappy shots..then played against Ed..duno why cant seem to hit the ball properly..so frustrating!! got distraction ba..haha..then let Ed win..Play with Alvin going win le..then hit the darn black ball inside the pocket..haix..so suay..
only when tag with Yianping against Alvin and Joanna manage to thrash them..suddenly on form..haha..we played two games and managed to win both..haha..so pro..although Yianping is not much of a help, but at least she veri sporting..haha..not easy de wor..because the previous game she made a fool out of herself..haha..she cute la..put the white ball infront of her still miss and hit other ball..haha..but under my guidance, she managed to hit in a ball into the pocket..so proud of her..lol..she also very happy..hahaz..then after that Yianping they all saw CID in the opposite table..then they quickly ran away to avoid any trouble..lol..[Yianping ar..actually Alvin is bluff u de..i nv kena check by the CID la..haha..]after that they took neoprint and off we head for home..
must say that this outing quite fun le..haha..credit goes to my buddy.....Ed !! haha..todae is a tiring day ba..zzz..so many activities in one short dae..haha..thats all for today folks..logging off....zzz...zzz...zz.....
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break'inFriday, November 18, 2005
haha..today is indeed a happy and joyful day to remember..haha..today marks the end of the torturing O levels..haha..today's last paper, Chemistry, the MCQ was challenging to mi because i was not concentrating and i was thinking about something else..however, paper 2 was much easier because my concentration was back..haha..after the last paper ended, screams and shouts could be heard everywhere..some were veri happy, some were cursing and swearing away..others just hurried home to play..
I went home and got changed..then went to meet Ed and Alvin to play pool at causeway..It was a great game..i and Ed were on par with each other while alvin was lagging behind..i won a total of 5 games..Ed oso won 5 games..Alvin won two..and it was i and Ed and shot the black ball in and thats why alvin won de.. [yucks..tyco de..] the funniest part was that alvin threw our face by hitting the white ball out if the table and the ball rolled to other ppl table..it was so embarrassing..haha..but funny too..lol..
then after that we went home..haha..i had lots of fun today with my two gd frens..haha..i will sonn be starting work at Linjun that side..must earn $$ and buy the things i wan le..hahax..
specially mention , today is WaiLing bdae..haha..here wishing her a happie bdae..think she is overjoyed ba..Bdae just nice O level end and on top of that got her favourite Harry Potter movie being released..She must be enjoyin herself now ba..lol..
Alright, its time to stop..see u all in the next entry..Guanhong signing off.......beep....
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break'inMonday, November 14, 2005
hm..today quite sianz..slacked the whole day..accompanied PA to the new holding school and rearranged the equipments..kind of boring but gain quite alot of things ba..but at this juncture cannot say anything ba..
Four more paper to the end of O levels..Wahaha..Looking forward to it so can go out and enjoy...Just a few more days.....
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break'inSaturday, November 12, 2005
hmm..today actually thought nth much will happen..thought it would be the same boring sat as usual..stayed at home and studied, den rot..haix..life's getting boring all these while..
However, something significant happened..haha..Ed finally changed his handphone..his previous phone was like collapsing and u can hardly find a spot that is not scratched..lol..the total cost of his phone was around $878..so expensive le! haha..only a rich boy like him could afford..haha..
next, my bro patch with joanna le !! Congratulations to the both of them..haha..wish they can stay happy together..[Linjun, must try understand her..got to know her better..Love her more..And make her smile always wor..get back together le must cherish her even more..] [Joanna, linjun sometimes abit shy..and he dun really know how to express his feelings..but from his words, i can sense that he really want patch veri much..] wish the both of you happy always..Also, i got myself another god sis..haha..Joanna became my god sis..knew each other 2 years le..think we get along quite well..haha..so be her elder bro..haha..so linjun wont bully her..haha..just kiddding..
today gain quite alot of things, a god sis and my amath now quite steady le..haha..finished the o level practise paper within 45 mins.. still got help linjun and my god sis get together again..haha..so happy although it is not veri much my business..haha..
Lastly, tomorrow dunno do wat..haix..Feel like playing CNC or DOTA.....zzz...gaming during o level..haha..excitng..''play game not slacking, is doing other things only'' Joanna say de..haha..bad infulence..haha..Just kidding..okie..guanhong signing off....buzz....buzz...beep...
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break'inThursday, November 03, 2005
3rd day since i broke up..at first i was rather sad and depressed..but today i felt that i was rather stupid..what for feel sad when the other party is..never mind..i dun want to say..After Ed told me something, i was rather shock.at that moment i was alone rotting in khatib mac..i was so bored, so lonely and feelng maybe alittle sad..haven recover frm the breakup..after the incident, i thought it over and thought i was stupid, foolish to feel that way..i should enjoy whatever company i have and not insolate myself since she is doin the same too.. surprising when i got hm, the first thing i saw on the TV was news talking about healing after a break-up..it talks abt some country embarking on a new course..teaching teens hw to recover after a break up and receive another new love..I thought it was rather coincidental that that happened..If there is God, perhaps God is trying to tell me to know how to give and take.Give my love and now take back the love i had given to her..Haha.. people may think that i am heartless and wicked to break up with her and dare say all these..but i believe in fate..it is fated that Ed saw her and it is fated that i decide on this..To be able to let go a 1yr plus relationship was not easy..no one knows how difficult it was for me to survive emotionally for the last 2 days..onlookers only know how to see the problem on the surface and of course they wil think it is e guy's fault..but what can i do..Nothing..
tomrrow is a brand new start for me and i promised myself not to probe about the past anymore..some ppl think that love is nth but a pack of lies with empty promises and much lies..couples claim that they will change for the sake of love, change for the sake of their the other half, but it is hard to change a personality that has been inside u since young.. like it is equally hard for a smoker to quit smoking..when i was at khatib this was what i thought too..but after walking blocks after blocks aimlessly alone, love can be sweet and fun too..it depends on who ur the other half is and how the couple handle their relationship..i am hopeful of the next relationship..i wan to love and be loved again..
today i played basketball with my seniors and it was veri fun..we played for 2 hours and at the end of the game we were like dying..sadly, i cut my thumb in the midst of the game and it stil hurts while i am writing dis entry..blood was trickling profusely when i was cut..but the pain was not as much as the pain my heart suffered for the past few days..after that, i and daniel hang out at funland for awhile but i left first..that was when i went to mac alone and studied there..haix.. i am lookin forward to tmr..tomorrow i will play basketball nevertheless..thats all for this entry..
::HOPE::
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break'inWednesday, November 02, 2005
hmm..today is the second day of the break up..haiz..boring as usual..went to school alone and studied alone until ed came..kind of boring lor..haix..i look forward to the day that o levels come..hope that it will come quickly and end quickly..the wound in my heart is healing as everyday passes by..somehow everyday seems boring and dull..there is absolutely no life..it is only filled with books and more books..hmm..there isn't much thinx to discuss on such dull days...haix..now some of my class ppl treat me like enemies just because i broke up with her..but their reactions are normal..it is understandable..they dun noe the true reason...
-break apart-
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break'inTuesday, November 01, 2005
i broke up with my stead..its because of many reasons that i decided to do that..i have to admit, she gave me alot of wonderful memories and i will always remember the happy times we shared..However, above all that, she is sort of unbearable.. She locks me up and stops me from talking to gals which i thought was rather stupid and unfair..The problem is after 1yr plus of relationship, she still does not trust me and i feel that trust is most important among all couples..Without that, i think that it is pointless to continue this relationship..now is the 'healing' period..I just hope that i can put the past behind me and move on..Let the past be a wonderful memory in my heart..
[i really want to apologise to break with you in this period..i really find no meaning in this relationship..and i know that i will go PA no matter what and u will b unhappy..i dun wan to continue to make u more sad and depressed..i hope that u will find a much beter stead then me..wish u happy alwax] I am sorry i cant be the person u want...hope u understand..
::L::O::N::E::L::Y::
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